In October, the large psychic-hotline company, Access Resource
Services of Fort Lauderdale, Fla., promised in a settlement with the
state attorney general not to engage in fraudulent practices. One
provision of the settlement absolutely forbids the company to hire
bogus counselors, but contains the exception allowing telephone
psychics to be hired if they swear in writing that they can read
people's minds.
thats just insane.
goto www.flutypook.com if you feel like it.
ninws: I'm reading your page right now...I think you are
the only person in the world i have met that writes in your fashion and
i love it and it amuses me and i dont care what anyone says you will be
the last man standing
GaijinSenshi: we shall see
ninws: i already have
niknws: you may be a ninja but i am without time constraints
i have seen it already
hmmm... not sure what to say about that...
i'm not sure what to say about this either:
Among the latest Muslim "fatwas" (religious rulings): Men and women
must use separate checkout counters in supermarkets (Malaysia, April).
Husbands may hit their wives "gently," "as a warning," but must take
care not to hit them in the face (Turkey, July). Having a spouse who
smokes is a legitimate ground for divorce (Egypt, July). No shopping at
a discount store (Egypt, June). Women caught working for
British-funded aid organizations will be kidnapped and forcibly married,
in order to keep them at home (Pakistan, August). And an October
fatwa by the Egyptian Islamic Group instructed disciples to "kill Jews
wherever they are found."
THIS IS ALL INANE NONSENSE, IT'S A GOOD THING NO ONE READS
THIS PAGE ANYMORE, EH?
Soon, everyone is evacuated from the church except for one man,
who sit calmly in his pew, seemingly oblivious to the fact that
God's ultimate enemy is in his presence. This confuses Satan a
bit.
Satan walks up to the man and says, "Hey, don't you know who I
am?"
The man says, "Yep, sure do."
Satan says, "Well, aren't you afraid of me?"
The man says, "Nope, sure ain't."
Satan, perturbed, says, "And why aren't you afraid of me?"
"Well, ' was married to your sister for 3 years."
Already, doctors at a Veterans Administration hospital believe they have
trained
a patient whose ability to communicate was shut down by a brain-stem
trauma; after an implant, he can order a cursor around merely by
thinking of where he wants it to go.
alright
now, this means to me, that they hooked up some guys
brain with some wires and stuff, and he can control things DIRECTLY WITH
HIS BRAIN. Jesus christ.. man. Give these people 10 years,
and human bodies won;t be nessessary, they can just put our brain in a
mechanical body. Well, maybe not that soon, but heck, people who
have lost arms and stuff will be able to get fully functional replacements.
Sorry this isn';t coherent, i'm tired.
oh wait.
OK 3 hours later, after having been through school i'm
home, and more awake :)
finally the government has shown some insight:
According to an April Seattle Times report, the Great Ape Legal
Project, headed by a Seattle lawyer, is moving toward a goal of
demonstrating, within the next decade, that chimpanzees should have
some of the same legal rights as humans (beyond being mere property,
according to the Times, "to [becoming] people with rights to life and
liberty and perhaps even the pursuit of happiness"). Though it would be
possible for a chimp to sue his guardian, a reassuring spokesperson said
animals such as cockroaches and ants "will never be eligible for any
kind of rights."
I woke up and decided to put on the beatles, so i turned
on the computer and tried to play it through winamp. Winamp has a
feature which reads the cd and downloads automatically what is on the cd.
Instead of it coming up "Abbey Road" it came up "Devil Doll - Sacriledge
of fatal arms" why? who knows.. so i looked for it on napster and
found nothing, so i went to netscape..all i got was this ubscure review
about them:
Devil Doll [Italy/Slovenia]
The Girl Who Was Death (88), Eliogabalus (90), Sacrilegium
(92), Sacriledge of Fatal Arms (92, re-make of
Sacreligium), Dies Irae (96?)
Devil Doll are an Italian band who sound nothing like
the archetypal Italian progressive music at all. No fusion or lush
symphonics here! What they offer is a very unique blend
of gothic imagery and Victorian "Jekyll and Hyde" ambience, spun
over a collage of piano, tortured vocals, sinister accordion
folk music interludes, choirs, violin and waltz themes. The dynamics
of the music is outstanding and never clumsy ... it moves
between diverse elements with skill and power. The vocals may not be
to the liking of some as there is a lot of them and they
are more whispered/screamed than sung, in general. They fit the music
perfectly though. The Girl Who Was ... Death is a conceptual
work based on the cult UK series "The Prisoner" and takes it's
name from one of the episodes. It demonstrates the maturity
to come and has a little more (but not much) in the way of powerful
rock sections. Mr Doctor also deigns to sing normally
occasionally! Lots of accordion, violin and harp. A rock opera? Both
Eliogabalus and Sacreligium are excellent works of extended
progressive gothic "opera," for want of a better term. Highly
metaphorical story-telling is important to the band's
approach ... for example, Sacreligium tells the story of a man in his grave
looking back over his life, complete with the closing
of the funeral as a bonus after the music has finished! Devil Doll excel
at
creating atmosphere with very sparse instrumentation
... Mr Doctor, the enigmatic and unidentified band leader, employs his
idiosyncratic vocal style to add to this. It may sound
peculiar but I can hear a Marillion influence. I know that sounds strange
given the description above but Marillion hinted at this
sort of style on their early albums but never pulled it off explicitly
or in
such a grandiose and effective manner. Don't get the
wrong idea though ... Devil Doll are not what you'd call a neo-prog band
at all. I'd wholeheartedly endorse the view that Devil
Doll are amongst the world's finest progressive acts of the '90s.
[See Mr. Doctor; Several of the members of Devil Doll,
including Mr. Doctor and the entire Devil Chorus are native to
Slovenia (formerly part of Yugoslavia)]
I stopped reading at "gothic" but anyways, this pointless, i just woke up, ok?
If i had a particle accelerator that could fit humans,
i would put you in and watch you die slowly.. except you'd be watching
me die slowly, so, it's ultimately pointless, just like this entire update!!
<hands himself a cigar>
>From: "michael" <michael_____7@hotmail.com>
>To: <Jaevin@adunai.iwarp.com>
>Subject: hi
>Date: Mon, 11 Sep 2000 12:58:50 -0700
>
>Hi, I saw what you wrote in the aol aim atheist group
and would like to see if you could consider the following:
>
>"Soul Death" is when a mortal makes the final decision
to deny God fully and it is verified and confirmed by the powers on high.
The mortal then becomes "the living dead" (soul death). This condition
is final. The mortal continues to live, however, with a dead soul. The
destiny of the dead soul when physical death takes place is the netherworld,
the world of the dead, also known as Hell. It is an eternal experience.
>
>Take care,
>Michael
>http://www.geocities.com/cimmay_2000/
The Trouble With Tofu: Soy and the Brain
"Tofu Shrinks Brain!" Not a science fiction scenario, this sobering soybean
revelation is
for real. But how did the "poster bean" of the '90s go wrong? Apparently,
in many ways
— none of which bode well for the brain.
I updated spacemadness.
i have to go to school, there may be more later.
<lowers face plate, draws katana>
books are expensive, i am broke :(
send me money:
eric's college funding
27101 Ayamonte
mission viejo, ca 92692
"I just thought it'd be good to show you how we can
all be guilty of the same things and not know it. "
a lesson we could all stand to learn, eh?
<raises pipe..(what could it be filled with????)>
what can i do?
I need to sink below.
my skin feels too old..
i am too vulnerable.
or maybe not enough...
is apex even a word?
jeez...
of course, everyone i'm explaining this to knows it already
anyways..
i guess i'm senile
hahahahahha....
hehe.
heh.
<sigh>
i lost a bet at pool, i am good at pool, but apparently
not when i am betting against people of the opposite gender. in my
bet (the one i lost) the loser had to give a LAP DANCE to the winner.
fortunately, nicole decided to instead have me visit her at college (2
hours away) i'm confused, becuase it was her idea, but i take what i can
get. Anyways, i get to not do it, but part of the deal is, i have
to put that i lost on my webpage.
:)
do or not do, there is no try...
so just do it.
i'm going to magic mountain tomarrow, i'm sure there will be long lines and rude people, after a long drive up there. it should be fun though, magic mountain has good roller coasters and i havent been on one in a long time.
everyone should go to www.cybertown.com
its a multi-user virtual reality engine, where you use your
browser to manuever about the world. Alan, Josh, me and Nicole have
houses in the mythology section under "aztec"
why do we live there?
i don't know.
Me and alan have jobs as club assistance. we got
them our first day to earn virtual money for our virtual houses, but we
haven't seen our bosses since then, so i think it's basically free virtua
money.. i guess that is pointless. I am just trying to write things
here so my page is not sparce. leave me alone, ok?
Evil livE
goodnight
click hereif you really really want to..
I'm sorry nicole! i will take you to the mall tomarrow.
:) if you want.
ni·hil·ism (n-lzm, n-)
n.
5.Psychiatry. A delusion, experienced in some mental
disorders, that the world or one's
mind, body, or self does not exist.
my fish are mysteriously disapeering.. how odd.
check out this link: click here if you want
Post on the message board!
1994 -- Jose Chavez, 24, on how he
ascertained that a skull he had found in a
garbage can in Lennox, Calif., in May, was human: "I bit it on
the neck to make sure it was real. That's how you test things."
GaijinSenshi: hoi
PeZ GrRrLy: ok
GaijinSenshi: i want to eat candy out of your hinged
head
PeZ GrRrLy: what the hell?
GaijinSenshi: i want to push your head up and eat the
delicious candy that comes out
PeZ GrRrLy: uhh go away
GaijinSenshi: 'pez" get it..
GaijinSenshi: christ.
hehe,, i have school tomarrow.
Look, i wrote a story: Time to Die it's all about spock's revenge
1995 -- In February,
William Williams, 34, and Robert Williams, 32,
were arrested in Des Moines, Iowa, and charged with breaking
into a change machine and a detergent machine at a
Laundromat. An eyewitness to the crime assisted police, even
though the men allegedly had thought they could buy her
silence by giving her several small packages of detergent from
the machine.
"someone who would kick a man when he's down has
got to be the lowest piece of s--- that ever crawled out from under a rock
to plauge mankind with it's loathesome egsistance." - James
"all conflict can be traced back to simple miscommunication."
james, don't let things go down like this..
i mean, come on
christ.
chill out.
ok, sorry
it's ok
thanks
so hey brad, fuck off, you don't even know.................................
So what had happened?
he had let the anger get the best of him, and he turned
away all that approached. His blade he held towards all warning them
to stay away. Meanwhile, he war'ed with himself over the way to handle
his confusion.
But the beast, as i said, has it's own agenda.
It turned what was once a beautiful thing of creation into a powerful tool
of self destruction, that beckenoned the paladin to rage, the drove him
to insanity, but made the once great warrior quiver with frusteration.
For their was no release of the pain he felt in his heart, no release for
the rage he felt inside, and it kept him back.
and held him down.
With nothing to believe in, his family gone, his trust
in the path of truth gone, his friends walking away, he had no choice but
to turn inward.
Slowly he accepted it, he accepted that in life, one must
temper his rage, or drive all away from him.
He also learned that loyalty, and honor were not true
things. they were of man, they were dreams.
He had tried to fight the good fight, but when all the
things he had faith in
love
trust
wisdom
friendship
had failed him, what exactle was the good fight?
how can you remain true to yourself if you have no self
to remain true to.
how can you expect to find solace in life?
the paladin sheathed his sword, he felt dishonored, and
unworthy of the blade.
he was no longer a pillar of truth, because he had learned,
that even truth would let you down
all he had believed in, all he had hope in, were gone.
Yet, he remained.
He tried to keep the beast at bay, and rebuild that which
he had destroyed, but to no avail. His path of sorrow, anger and
destruction was too long, and too dark to be mended, or even understood.
All those he had, had forgotten what he once was, long ago, and knew only
the monster that had manifested itself in his time of need. He stood
no chance of redemption.
no chance of reconcilation with those he had once called
comrades. (or so he thinks?)
now a lone swordsman stands on the cliff, overlooking
a land he once fought for. leaving behind all he had loved.
He keeps his sword sheathed, and locked, knowing too well the deadliness
and hatred he is capable of wielding, he must now walk the path in a new
light.
all was not lost.
not yet anyways.
JAMES: click here
leave a man to lick his wounds.
SQQQQQQQQQQUAACKKKkkkk...
meow.
sometimes things spin out of control and you can't contain
them
sometimes this is a good thing, sometimes it's a bad
thing
but it happens
it's happening now.
kup......o
avoid sharp objects.
<yawn>
it's my brother's birthday
i don't think you guys are being bastards.
i don't think it wasn't my fault for pushing you
away
I don't even pretend to talk to you all, so where is
the problem?
i have 166 new e-mails because i don't check it anymore
i'm not going to check those either
sorry
cept yours luna, of course
I wish i had a giant sledge hammer that could smash whatever
needed smashing
72% on the battery
er.. 71%
don't read this webpage, it's not for you
it's not for anyone, it doesn't exist.
all the updates i do that i don't really feel like doing
come out like this
i'm just going on for no reason but something to do while
i'm waiting to go to dinner
titan ae is a good movie in that it has good special effects and it presents itself well. nothing in it is new, but it's still good.
"mind if i cut in?"
"more the merrier"
is something wrong here?
nein.
why not?
why would there be?
the baby was born and it wasn't right
it was deformed and mutated
it had three heads
one arm
and 17 toes
when it was one, it would drag itself around with its
arm, and it's toes would move along like catapiller feet
it's cry was truly beautiful because it was a chorus
when it grew up, it joined a freak show at the circus
but was soon fired because no one wanted to see it
so it bought a harmonica and a piano, and learned to
play with it's toes
it was a one freak band
and i'm going on and on about something stupid
for no reason
and if you're still reading,
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i didn't meen it i swear.
I SWEAR
hehe
<yawn>
nothing, i really don't have much to say i guess.
maybe later.
"I like a good cigar, but not when it explodes"
hey, should i quit my job?
lala..
i have updates to do, but i want pictures and i need to scan them
i'm on my laptop
chanel, babeeeeeee
i'm sorry
you know i am.
call me!!!!
or not.
uhm..
SHAFT@@
"too black to for the cops, too blue for the brothers"
SHAFT
my baby turtle is getting bigger, soon it will be old
enough to fly and eat cities.
SHAFT
messiah deluxe has it's first REAL REAL mp3, IM me to get it.
I have a new screen name: JaevinBlackpawn.
I don't like it, but everyone refuses to give me a new
name so i guess it'll suffice to i have an epiphony of my true self.
or something like him.
don't blame me,
i'm a nihilist.
love you
special loves to the following:
K, H, C, M, M, and God.
because god gave me a chicken burrito, and i ate it.
...
So,whats up?
nothing
...
Long time no see.
yep.
...
Hows life?
same as ever
...
VRRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooom...
accelerate to 65, because thats the speed limit, and
i dont break the law.
i should fill you all in on something:
I have nothing
oh well, fuck it. I guess.
not much i can do.
I guess i'm a monster
just like life in general.
-
i'm listening to a white rapper,
heheh..
Management of this webpage is changing soon, headquarters think i have good material, but no editing skills, no discipline, and no consistancy.
did you miss me when i've been gone on my month hiatus? I didn't think so, I bet i don't even have any readers left, i probably never had them in the first place. I just liked to think i wasn't just writing all this stuff to my self. It was a nice fantasy.
I guess i don't care.
I guess.
FRUSTERATION
tied up, unarmed, no one at my back, no one on my side,
no self-trust, no self confidence, alone and drifting
through space
as if thats anything new
hello?
hell
.
.
.
.
..o
how are you?
who?
you.
I'm ok.
just ok?
yup
k.
just keep doubting me
you've already made me doubt myself
it's like trying to force my desire to provide for me.
so much
desire.
I am selfish because i can't be happy without providing a little hope to all the poor saps that are just like me w/ nothing but the incessant, powerfully driven need to force an infinite amount of abstract beauty and purity for others to see, and the frusteration that this, is probably the best i can do.
A bunch of senseless gibberish that is me trying to tell
you all that life and everything is beautiful
i'm guessing the majority of passion i have for this
is lost in the translation.
what can i do/
nothing.
I'm lost
alone
afraid
and hurt
AND INVINCIBLE
5.2.00
Things will now come your way - a fortune cookie I
recieved.
little did i know what it meant.
(i'll write a more official story of this later..)
Well, I was in jail.
(i'm sick of retelling, so this is gonna be concise)
What happened? I was sitting in my car listening to music,
and a cop rolled up.
He wanted me to get in his car, i asked why, they didn't
say anything, i told them no, resisted when they tried to force me..
*Pow* slug to the face, pepper spray, three guys on me..
*whack* *whack* still i struggled, big fat cop comes from behind me
puts me in a sleeper hold, i know i'm out.. i stop struggling,
good night sweet prince.
Face smashed into the concrete..
they kicked me while i was down. (face, ribs)
in and out of consciencness..
blood and pepper spray, and tears and sweat dripping
unto the cement..
i try to stand, they kick me down.
i don't remember the ambulance, i don't remember the fire engine.
I was put in the back of the car, driven around, first to jail (they rejected me cause my pulse was too high) then to the hospital (nurse gave me soda and water, i was hand cuffed to the gerny) brought back to jail.
cops are being stupid and trying to make fun of me by
calling me a ninja (i had a katana in my back seat)
dazed, i told them "you're lucky i'm not a real ninja"
the hand cuffs were tight. I asked them to loosen them, they made them tighter..
I was put into a holding cell and left for 2 hours.
Soon, other people were brought in w/ me and we went
around cell to cell getting booked, i finally saw a mirror, my face was
pretty black and purple.
We got to a room w/ a payphone and so i called my grandparents.
They refused the call. I got depressed, felt pretty alone.
The other guys urged me to try again.
i did.
got refused again..
Now i was in jail, charged w/ a felony (possession of
a deadly weapon) and i figured my family had decided to leave me in jail.
Logically, suicide made sense. Jail guard picked
up on it.. they sent me to the suicide ward.
Where they took off my jail jumpsuit and gave me a 3 x
2 foot tarp vest, and nothing else, and put me in a little room.
It was very cold in there, and i had nothing but a little
foam mattress, and the tarp.
the air condition was blowing 24 hours a day..
i sat there hundled up with my tarp thing wrapped around
me for about 36 hours.. nothing to do, and i couldn't sleep.
SPACE MADNESS>
for sure.
I blocked up the AC vent w/ wet toilet paper..
After awhile a psychologist came by and asked me questions,
i answered, i was taken off suicide watch but left in my little cell, but
i got my orange jump suit back, and socks and shoes (no shoe laces, wouldn't
want me to HANG myself..)
I slept good that night
Anyways, third day in the morning, i went on the jail
bus w/ 30 other guys (felons, convicts, drug dealers, ect) i was hand cuffed
to one, we never talked to each other, i don't remember what he looked
like at all, not race, hair color..
In the bus we listened to the radio, nothing good was
on though.
I sat in the court jail w/ a bunch of guys. Jail
is funny, because the bad guys are pretty nice, and most of the time we
were trying to block up the air conditioning w/ magazine pages or talking
about playstation or talking about how much trouble we were in.
Never saw a judge, never saw a public defender, never
saw anyone while i was there (still hadn't even spoken to my family)
A deputy came and had me sign a paper so my mom could
get my car out of the impound lot.
I sat for another few hours, everyone had their turn
'cept me..
finally the same deputy (a girl w/ glasses) told me my
mom said "call me when you get out tonight and i'll pick you up"
I went back to my little cell (got a quick shot of bad mojo when that door slammed me in again) and ate my dinner (two oranges, one i had saved from lunch) and then sat and waited for them to tell me what was going on..
So i was released.. no charges were filed, no one ever talked to me, i didn;t know anything. I got my stuff back, my clothes back
My manager maureen was there to pick me up, i was suprised, but i guess she had figured everything out.. She rocks.
I was happy to be free.
I rested for a day, then my dad flew out from ohio to visit me.
Went back to work friday, worked all weekend.
Worked all week.
<Yawn>
now i'm here writing this.
JAIL LESSONS:
Listen to everything they say.
Don't tell them you want to commit suicide
Don't have an attitude, most of the inmates are nice
guys, and you'll get along well.
Jail sucks.
maybe i will anyways, despite my decision not to.
woke up, (slept in clothes and shoes yesterday)
called work, told them my car was out of gas and since
when i work is arbitrary and i had made the decision to work today as opposed
to tomarrow yesterday, i figured it'd be no big deal. However my
manager didn't feel that way, because she was dragged out of bed early
after closing the night before, because another manager forgot to wake
up to open the store this morning. So i begged my mom for money,
got gas, went to work.
work was lame, i didn't finish everything i was supposed
to ( i had gotten in 130 boxes yesterday, and 30 today) and i didn't have
time to cart all the books, and there was no room anyways on the carts.
It was a stupeed bloody mess.
On the bright side, when i went to get the ladder at
Dietrichs Coffee next door, i asked the chick there if she wanted me to
hit anybody w/ it and she said yes, all the customers.
40 minutes passed 6 (when i was off) i left the store.
Got to my car, my remote wouldn;t work, the key to get
in the car was in the car, i was screwed.
Asked the guy at electronic's boutique if i could borrow
a battery, he gave it to me, i tried again. No go.
So, after going back and forth between EB and my car,
trying variations of battery's ect., i sat beside my car, in the cold,
and rain clouds looming and decided to wait there until i died or something
good happened. I wish i had my harmonica, because that'd be a good
time to play it, unfortunately, it was LOCKED IN MY CAR.
My manager kevin saw me there, and offered to call AAA, so he did, the truck arrived, they tried to get in, and after numerous attempts succeeded in doing so. .... key in the ignition, nothing. We tried to jump it, nothing. Evidently, the alarm killed the battery and now nothing would work. So the car is still in the parking lot. I'm at home. The end.
e-mail me, i miss you guys
the wall was too high he could not break free
I went to disneyland today, and well, it kinda made me
feel destructive? why? because a company uses mass marketed propaganda
ridden, lifeless media to suck money from people? no.
I wanted to kill everyone because sitting there, with
thousands of people around me doing the same thing, human being started
to blend. I was overwhelmed by them, they all blured together and
began looking like mutants and such. I also realized i was one of
them, and it just seemed so... blarg.
Anyways, disneyland is a good place if you like videodrome
and/or dull space madness.
Fade away
fading away
and gone.
SPACE MADNESS RIDE:
you get in it, and you sit there. it's a little white
pod. it has a smooth white cieling and smooth white walls.
You can walk a little bit and maybe jump around a bit, but thats it.
It's you, and the walls, and a little terminal.
The terminal has a keypad. When you put in the
password, you get to get out.
otherwise you stay there forever.
SHOOT FROM THE HIP.
Tzar is a cool game, you get to make cloaking ninjas who can kill everyone.
physical manifestation of the uncarved block right now. I hate being a medium.
GOD PAINTED THE WORLD WITH EVOLUTION
Iwishihadahandfoldedrazorsharpkatana
there were four of us, we got on tram #35.
Here's the turtle song:
you follow me but you don't see where i'm going
you say you love me but you don't show it
you feed yourself to the gaping maw
you get eaten up and spit out raw
you're a cat
it's a turtle
and the turtle will eat the cat
yeah baby
the turtle will eat the cat.
I put that here now becuase i'm pretty sure that i can relate most human
experiences to it.
go buy timothy mcsweeney's
and mdfmk
and "war all the time" by bukowski
seeya all later
From:
Frank LaRosa <FLAROSA@SBCCVM>
HEMMINGWAY TAKES A CRACK AT STAR TREK
I was the captain. I was heading for
the bridge. The captain
belonged on the bridge. He was the captain. I walked
onto the
bridge.
Uhura was the communications officer.
She was sitting at the
communications console. Dammit, Uhura was ugly. Probably
everyone on
the bridge thought so. Checkov thought so. If only these
damn script
writers would put it in the damn script. Then maybe one
of us could
say it. Damn.
I turned to Uhura. "Put Kahn on the
screen", I said.
"Kahn?"
"Yes, Kahn."
"On the screen?"
"Yes, the screen."
"You want me to put Kahn on the screen?"
Dammit, Uhura was stupid too. Just
then Kahn came on the screen.
I said, "God dammit Kahn, what do you want?"
"I want all the information on the
Genesis project."
"The information?"
"Yes."
"On the Genesis project?"
"Yes."
"All of it?"
"Yes."
It seemed as though Kahn wanted all
the information on the
Genesis project. Dammit, Kahn was ugly. But I knew this
Kahn. He was
out to destroy me. I couldn't give him the information.
I had to
destroy him. If I gave him the information then he would
destroy me
and I knew I had to destroy him.
I told Checkov to load the torpedo
tubes. The torpedo tubes held
the photon torpedos. The photon torpedos would destroy
Kahn. Checkov
loaded the torpedo tubes. Kahn was on the screen again.
"I want all
the information on the Genesis project".
I told Checkov to fire the photon
torpedoes.
"Here it comes," I said.
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Happy spring equinox.
A recap of yesterday's events:
wake up to my mom and step-dad fighting. She's
kicking him out, he's leaving. If he's gone, my step-sister chelsea
goes with him.
I'm in here, listening to Moby:
"ohh lordy, troubles so hard,
ohh lordy, troubles so hard,
don't nobody knows my troubles with God
don't nobody knows my troubles with God"
My mother is crying. i forget her harshness, i forget
it all. I go to comfort her.
She's upset because she wanted to live a life of dreams
and hope with brian, but we were all trying hard enough to just survive.
She asks me what she should do, she says "you're the
logical one, what should i do?" I ask her what she wants.
She says she doesn't know..
The problem with logic is that you have to have know
the steps to decifer the best sollution. She is standing there, and
i think of how she no longer looks my mother.. just another lost sad girl..
He is off finding a new place.
So, i go and talk to him.
Brian is a cool guy. He is unusually calm and reserved
in most situations i've been in with him, this one is no exception.
We talk. The problem is, he is afraid of her, and
she wants him to stand up to her.
Which i know is like sticking your head in the lion's
mouth...
I talk some courage and hope into him, and he goes to
resolve the issues. He wants me to go with him to moderate.
I do...
she's crying. Apparently my brother has decided
to move to my uncle's house. He's getting packed up. Shes standing
in the pathroom doorway, tugging on her dress with sadness. It's
like all of a sudden her life is slipping away from her, without struggle,
like an exhale of breath.
We try to talk to her, but she doesn't want to talk about
her relationship now..
Brian and I go outside. He lights a cigerette,
i'd like one, but I play the innocent in my household, iIt keeps the questions
away.
I don't smoke anyways, except on special occasions.
My mom comes out..
No longer sad, she has regained her poise, and her pines
are bristling.
I listen to them argue, while pouring my glass of water
unto the cement, it trickles down the driveway.
The look at me..
"You're the wise one, settle this."
I offer my advice.. I tell them that they need to comunicate
better and on an even ground, instead of hurling insults at each other
and pulling rank. I tell them family coucelling would keep things
fair instead of one sided.. I guess they agree.
They only respect my opinion when they are in trouble.
They decide to work things out.
Meanwhile, my brother is packing his stuff to move away..
He'll be back though. I'm not worried.
I get my clothes on and head off to work. I'm listening
to Tom Petty's "Full moon fever"
I stop at a red light behind a truck. A mountain
dew bottle rolls under my foot. (who drinks mountain dew??)
I reach down to grab it, foot goes off the break, I roll into the truck
ahead of me. I follow him to a side street. He has a brand
new truck, I have a sorta-new camaro. Fortunately the damage is minimal,
he was a cool guy. He said "well.. don't worry about it, get out
of here." I decide to give him my number in case of problems.
We drive off. I get to work a bit early, and read a bit of my new
Bukowski book. Here's my favorite excerpt from then:
As i stood at the urinal
gagging and pissing
a crapper door opened and a
midget walked out.
he took an orange tennis ball
out of his pocket.
he cocked his arm and threw a
line drive at the mirror.
the mirror didn't break.
and as the ball zipped back
he leaped in the air and caught
it in his mouth.
then, while holding the ball in
his mouth
he did a little tap dance like
Fred Astaire and
was gone.
I felt better after that.
I was working at a register, which is ok, but it is slow
and boring. Not much to do, and you can't really do much but sit
there because once you start to do something, someone comes up and puts
their books on the counter. I usually draw pictures of the famous
writers that are wallpapered up against the side of the building.
Those don't take me very long.
Whenever we needed to open the drawer for change, we'd
have to call a manager to the front. This was always a hassle because
they were normally in the back room at the back of the store talking, and
it would take a few minutes to get them to come up. I knew a trick
though: You could ring up a newspaper for one cent, and open the
drawer. So there was a manager standing there, and i did the trick
just to be stupid or whatever.. trouble is the only thing other then working
hard that makes employment tolerable for me. She was suprised i could
open the drawer, and asked me to do it again. I realized though,
that ringing it up for one cent everytime would make my drawer slightly
off, so i decided intsead to try ringing up one for .0 cents. I didn't
mind my drawer being 5 cents off at the end of the night, but i didn't
want to make waves witht he manager. Well, this was a major mistake.
The drawer didn't open because no money was put in, and
there was no money to take out. However, since it registered a cash
transaction, it thought that it was open. This is one thing i hate
about programmers, they have no forsight to the bumblings of people.
I could have coded it to work, but oh well...
Anyways, it was stuck forever with a little window that
said "close drawer please"
but we couldn't because it was closed..
I think this story above might be boring, it's kind of boring me writing
it, so i will go to the bottom line:
They had to call the store manager and get some secret
key to fix it, and even after that, it was still broken, i thought i was
going to get fired, but the store manager actually thought it was funny,
and it was no big deal at all.
Some item's of interest (to me at the very least)
A fat man gave me a business card that described him as a "balloon Animal Artist Extrodinaire" A co-worker said "We're probably going to go to Rosarita because we're too cheap for Cabo" A girl reading books in the sexuality section said "it's gross looking at other people doing it." I wonder if the Torah is catagorized under M for moses or G for God. |
here is an excerpt from a poem by Charles Bukowski:
"and we sat there for
several hours
talking
laughing
drinking tea
(for them)
wine for
me
talking and laughing
as if everything was
all right
instead of mutilated
and murdered
forever"
A friendly reminder: march 20th marks the spring equinox, thus ending the winter of discontent. |
Glossary is updated. Look for the angel.
I put two lone swordsmen in the cd player in my camaro,
making a total of 3 of them.
the higher powers of the universe has deemed it nessessary
to create us using the drastic forces of evolution. Why they did
this, i don't know. But they did in fact do it, because here we are.
Anyways, whatever forces or reasons behind our creation also made it standard
for us to have emotional responses to have actions in our lives, things
like ambition, sorrow, fear, and these are what drive us to forge forward
in this life. But all in all, i think we can sum up human existance
in a simple phrase:
how can a group of hairless monkey's get themselves
in so much trouble?
whatever all that means.
I rewired my dreamcast and now i can play japanese games. The game that i have is called Berserk, and it's my favorite game ever because it so beautiful illustrates a metaphor in our lives. The main character, in the hopes of helping this girl and destroying evil, embarks on a quest to destroy the source of the rising darkness. He has to fight hordes of zombies, mutants, and soldiers who seemingly attack him for no good reason. His weapon? A giant sword, that is so big, it shreds through his enemies. There are, however two problems: there seemingly is an infinite amount of enemies, and his sword is so big, he can't always swing it because it clangs against the walls. When he takes enough damage, he gets really mad and goes into berserk mode, and you can swing the sword faster, and you don't take damage, but usually your sword still hits the wall. You get infinite continues, but you will never end up using that many.
Make of that what you will.
In the CD player: Two lone swordsmen (dance/trance)
this update brought to you by the letters D, and M
and the number 16
I had a pretty weird dream last night..
it started out with me being all happy, at some weird
camp type place.. Meg was there, we were still going out, evidently..
she left early on. I can't remember this whole
part of the dream, but for some reason, it ended up being a school, and
i was playing some game with my friends having a good time, then a teacher
got all mad and tried to expell me, but i argued out of it. it was
weird.. right after that meg's all "we're broken up now, sorry.."
and thats when the dream lost all grasp on reality:
Ninjistic: i just had a twacked out dream
Strimbello: about?
Ninjistic: like, everything
Ninjistic: basically it was me playing the adunai movie
for my dad, it was whack
Strimbello: hehe
Ninjistic: like at the end
Ninjistic: there was a clip from the simpsons
Strimbello: woohoo!!
Ninjistic: that didn't really exist
Ninjistic: it was weird
Strimbello: fuckin-a
Ninjistic: bart and lisa were trying to stop mr burns
Ninjistic: from dumping 4932875042193721093 tons of sewage
Ninjistic: and the thing they had, was a dump truck full
of these magic rubber ducks
Strimbello: hmmm
Ninjistic: homer tried to stop them
Ninjistic: they went to dump it
Ninjistic: but the rubber ducks were stuck to the inside
of the truck
Ninjistic: and mr burns was laughing manically
Ninjistic: but then one of them tumbled down
Ninjistic: and splashed into the water
Ninjistic: and turned into a real duck, and the trail
behind it as it floated down was blue instead of being all polluted
Ninjistic: then all the ducks fell out
Strimbello: holy shit...that is weird
Ninjistic: and like, cleaned up everything
Ninjistic: it was way out there
Ninjistic: then like it turned even weirder
Ninjistic: cause it went into first person
Ninjistic: with me as myself taking barts place, and
it was not really a cartoon
Ninjistic: and there was an army marching upon us
Strimbello: that would make a sweet episode
Ninjistic: and poncho was there, and he's like "i'll
take care of this" and he charged the entire army, and there was a huge
explosion
Ninjistic: and then EVERYONE was there
Ninjistic: yeah, it would
Ninjistic: actually
Ninjistic: anywyas, everyone was there
Ninjistic: and we were all bummed out over poncho's death
Ninjistic: but then, he like popped up in the air with
condor man- like hang gliding wings
Ninjistic: and the credit's played
Ninjistic: and he kept flying past the screen
Ninjistic: and i cried
heheheh...
it's a good thing i don't have to explain myself to a
psychiatrist or anything..
Maybe it's a metaphor for life..
You think you have everything you could want, that you're
life is complete..
but there are always outside forces. Even the people
you love and trust the most can leave you all alone, and it might bring
you down.
But then there are always your true friends, and the
good times, and even when things get at their worst, you can unload your
truck full of rubber ducks, and they will clean up the filth. Then
some unexpected friend who you may have forgotten was on your side will
come and save the day. And even in your despair at their death, they
will triumph!!! and fly around with giant batlike wings.. I don't
know..
uh..
let me rephraise that paragraph,
you may think you're living a happy beautiful life, and
that everything is perfect.
But unfortunately, if it was perfect, it would not be
so easily broken. In the end, doing the right thing will be your
only salvation.
and the beauty* will ALWAYS prevail
*beauty- true beauty, when things feel so perfect
ergh...uhhhh...
moving on :)
I'm so disorganized, i've lost my last 2 paychecks..
How freaking stupid is that? it's like, 350 dollars.. i don;t know where
they went.
I can get them replaced, but thats beside the point.
So I've purchased "Idiots guide to Organizing your Life" for 3 bucks.
Heh...
I better cut my losses and quit now for today, more later!!
You think, i open a webpage, in the middle of the net,
and i don't know, whats going on?
i f*c*ing represent.
Existance is futile: you will be obliterated.
Who are you to resist?
Oh yeah..
The adunai.
SplJamnRam: i'm being watched by the government
SplJamnRam: right now
Mehakoi: yeah i know
Mehakoi: its ok though
SplJamnRam: mad bumbler vs the feds, round 2
Mehakoi: thats an unfair fight
Mehakoi: the mad bumbler should tie a hand behind his
back
SplJamnRam: heh
SplJamnRam: yeah
WHAT MANNER OF NIHILISM IS THIS????
or is it the new irony?
is this even a joke?
what the fu**?
ugh.